the ultimate removal of the masks

I have been insanely busy lately – my apologies for not writing for the past 6+ weeks.  We are preparing to move across country and needless to say, my time is more than well-spoken for right now.  This is the last day before the moving truck arrives and as I look around the house, I cannot imagine how we will accomplish all that is necessary.  And yet, I know it will be done.

He Who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it… Philippians 1:6

But that’s not the point of this post.

When we were at the CPM conference, we were told, “If you keep your mask up, your mask will receive the love, and you will not.”  Words to live by, but how many of us actually take the time and effort to remove the mask we wear?  Do we risk rejection and let others see our “real selves”?  Do we take the effort to avoid the fakeness and let people see when we have good days … and bad ones, too?

We are about to do just that in a big way.  Our last Sunday at our church is in two days.  I well up just thinking about it.  We love these people and have genuine community with them.  We will miss them like crazy.  We prayed for God’s best and believe He’s providing it in this move, but there is pain on the path to His highest and best and we’re in the midst of the grief that comes before it.  But today will be the ultimate removal of masks for us:  the Creative Arts Director at our church will be coming here to film us.

And we will tell our story to our church family via video.

The very thing we’ve kept hidden for so long for fear of being rejected will be shown on both campuses on July 18 as they kick off a “FAQ” series.  The series will look at “what does God really think about …?” and the staff is preparing messages that go along with the ellipses.  I was told that the NUMBER ONE issue that came up when the congregation was given the chance to ask the questions was homosexuality.  As in “What does God really think about homosexuality?”

And that’s where we come in.

We left the CPM conference knowing that our next step was to take off our masks before the church and to be real.  We approached the leadership (who knew our story and supported us all the way) and they smiled, nodded, and said, “Let’s see what God does with this.”  We suspected it might be via video, due to having two campuses and the unpredictability of live conversations like this, but as our time ticked down and we began packing, I started to think that maybe it wasn’t going to happen.  Not that we mis-heard God, but that maybe His plan wasn’t for us to share with this church, but our next church.

Not so.  And so after putting down weed mat in the front garden and covering it with mulch in preparation for listing the house, I’ll come in & shower and get ready to sit in front of a video camera.  I really dislike being on video, but this is something we must do in obedience.  And we know that people will find help and freedom because of our story and what God will do with it.  It’s a little awkward to know that we’ll not be here when it airs, but that’s all in God’s design as well.  He’ll use us and our story to set captives free, and that’s what is truly important.

His and his,


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  • Annalea

    Dearest Eowyn,

    I’m so proud of you and your husband for being obedient to God’s direction in telling your story – I pray that many will be blessed in it.

    And what you said, “there is pain on the path to His highest and best and we’re in the midst of the grief that comes before it” really spoke to me. I hate the pain that comes before and often with God’s best plans for me yet the more I learn about Him and His love for me, I come to a deeper understanding that everything He does, He does out of love for me.

    I’m excited for all of you and the new path that the Lord is taking you down and I’m really looking forward to hearing about the new diggs and your new church (family)!

  • Shula

    As always, dear heart, I’m so proud of you and how you recognize that your story is part of the larger story of redemption and healing that God is telling in the world.
    .-= Shula´s last blog ..Welcome =-.