28 Apr 2013

Control

This journey is hard.  Harder than I could ever imagine.  And yet – God says He’s with me the whole way and I have His unlimited strength to pull from when I think I can’t go on any longer.  So why does this trigger control issues for me (and others)? I think the answer lies […]

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16 Jul 2010

Forgiveness – full & true?

We are settling in to our new location and decorating our apartment.  It’s been a solid 15 yrs since I’ve lived in an apartment – there are definitely things I like (not having to do the maintenance ourselves) and things I’m not so crazy about (hearing the dog upstairs run around like a maniac at […]

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20 Mar 2010

Black & White Thinking

We were at an event last night and I stepped in it. I don’t mean I goofed up for the room to see, but I made a mistake. I engaged someone in conversation and went willingly in to the field, only to stagger back, wounded & hurt. Ordinarily, I have a thick skin and I […]

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16 Jan 2010

One Year Later

So last year around this time, I was struggling.  Struggling to come to a peaceful place with my cousin’s unexpected and untimely passing, struggling to make sense of our therapy sessions and what we were getting from them, and struggling to keep my head above water when I was faced with the truth of my […]

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08 Nov 2009

If You Love Someone….

Sting wrote the song “If You Love Someone (Set Them Free)” in 1985 in response to the popularity of the previous Police hit “Every Breath You Take,” which was not a love story as the public took it, but the story of a stalker watching and obsessing over his prey.  He was chagrined at how […]

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18 Jul 2009

Ted & Gayle Haggard

So apparently, the Haggards have been in the media lately – they did a documentary with a pay-per-view cable company, were on “Oprah,” and have been written up in various magazines, newspapers, and the rest. I’m relatively unplugged from the mainstream media, but one thing that I do read with semi-regularity is Charisma magazine, and […]

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20 May 2009

rage

Of all the things on this journey that I didn’t expect, it has been the depth of sheer anger and rage I have at a man who has been dead nearly 20 years.  I am a natural redhead and have borne jokes through the years about my supposed anger.  The truth is that I’m really […]

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04 May 2009

Finding a New Normal

My husband and I had our first Theophostic meeting last week and I’ve pondered how to describe it and write about it for a full week now.  I’m really glad we went and we’ll be going back next week.  God completely showed up and met us there – and let’s face it:  He didn’t have […]

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17 Feb 2009

beauty for ashes

To grant [consolation and joy] to those who mourn in Zion–to give them an ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit–that they may be called oaks of righteousness [lofty, strong, and magnificent, […]

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10 Feb 2009

divorce

You might have noticed another badge along the sidebar of the site; it’s from Family Dynamics Institute. Divorce happens. It’s a sad fact of life that I wish wasn’t. But it’s been going on for thousands of years and is in no way a “new thing” or an American condition. Jesus recognized that Moses set […]

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