I Did It

Remember that phone call I had to make?  I did it – I finally sucked up every ounce of courage I had and did it.

I knew that time was escaping and it was getting to critical mass for me. As I went to sleep last night, I couldn’t even honestly pray, “God, give me a sign that tomorrow is the day, because I know I have to do it.” Instead, I prayed, “…So please give me the courage to do it.”

It started with a text – because I wanted to respect this person’s time and space, especially if family time was going on after church.  I asked him to call me or text me to let me know when a good time to call him was; that I’d like to talk with him briefly.  As it turned out, text was a great option, because he was travelling and didn’t have availability for more than a few moments of a call.

We connected and he is amenable to having either lunch or coffee with me – and has time in the next few weeks.  It was a pleasant conversation and I’m incredibly thankful for the opportunity.  I have nothing but grace, forgiveness, and love to show him – and as nervous as I’ve been, I just don’t want it to be awkward between our families forever.  The Enemy would like nothing more than to destroy a bond that God forged between us, but I won’t give him that satisfaction.  He’s already tried to do so, but God’s love & power of forgiveness have overcome all of it.  In my heart of hearts I want only the best for him – the seduction, affair, and hiding notwithstanding.

I’m glad I did it – and I’m continuing to pray against complications from the Enemy surrounding our meeting.  Whether it goes well or not, I will write about it – because it’s part of my healing journey as well as my husband’s.

His and his,

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  • http://bethegroom.blogspot.com The Groom

    Good job on taking that step! Now we continue to pray that your face-to-face goes well, right? Still praying.

  • cori

    Hi Groom –

    Yep, you’re exactly right – please keep praying. And thanks for your prayers already. :)


  • http://www.sensuouswife.com Sensuous Wife

    Cori, I’ve tagged you in a meme and may I suggest your bravery make the list? You have a brave and beautiful heart, my friend, and I can’t wait to read your meme. ~Shula