20 Mar 2010

Black & White Thinking

We were at an event last night and I stepped in it. I don’t mean I goofed up for the room to see, but I made a mistake. I engaged someone in conversation and went willingly in to the field, only to stagger back, wounded & hurt. Ordinarily, I have a thick skin and I […]

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28 Jan 2010

More on Gayle Haggard

I read on Charisma’s website that Gayle Haggard has a new book out.   Why I Stayed: The Choices I Made In My Darkest Hour is definitely on my “to read” list, but what is fascinating to me is how many people either have judged or will judge her without understanding her story.  They lack […]

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16 Jan 2010

One Year Later

So last year around this time, I was struggling.  Struggling to come to a peaceful place with my cousin’s unexpected and untimely passing, struggling to make sense of our therapy sessions and what we were getting from them, and struggling to keep my head above water when I was faced with the truth of my […]

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08 Nov 2009

If You Love Someone….

Sting wrote the song “If You Love Someone (Set Them Free)” in 1985 in response to the popularity of the previous Police hit “Every Breath You Take,” which was not a love story as the public took it, but the story of a stalker watching and obsessing over his prey.  He was chagrined at how […]

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15 Sep 2009

Yeah, so…

I had queried a few weeks ago whether it would be any easier to do the Cardboard Testimonies the 2nd and 3rd times… and the answer is a resounding “No.” It was still completely worthwhile, but to do it at the northern campus of our church this past Sunday was still hard.  It was hard […]

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06 Sep 2009


Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes Turn and face the strange (Ch-ch-Changes) Don’t want to be a richer man Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes Turn and face the strange (Ch-ch-Changes) Just gonna have to be a different man Time may change me But I can’t trace time David Bowie’s song “Changes” from the “changesONEbowie” album of 1984 seems to explain much of our lives […]

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18 Jul 2009

Ted & Gayle Haggard

So apparently, the Haggards have been in the media lately – they did a documentary with a pay-per-view cable company, were on “Oprah,” and have been written up in various magazines, newspapers, and the rest. I’m relatively unplugged from the mainstream media, but one thing that I do read with semi-regularity is Charisma magazine, and […]

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24 Jun 2009


We saw our therapist this week – it’s been a solid 2 months since we’ve seen him, due to scheduling conflicts. At our last appointment, he referred us to the Theophostic facilitator, we were spiritually attacked in his parking lot, and in the ensuing weeks, we discovered the truth about my husband’s CSA & how […]

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15 Jun 2009

the little foxes

We have a family of foxes living in our backyard. Yep, it’s like Animal Planet over here – rabbits, chipmunks, squirrels, a groundhog, deer, and now a mama fox & 4 kits. It’s cool to watch, no question – but it’s also brought a bit more clarity to the Scriptural idea of “little foxes spoiling […]

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24 May 2009

I Did It

Remember that phone call I had to make?  I did it – I finally sucked up every ounce of courage I had and did it. I knew that time was escaping and it was getting to critical mass for me. As I went to sleep last night, I couldn’t even honestly pray, “God, give me […]

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